Lately the days just seem to be running together. I looked back on my April calendar and almost every appointment has an X through it because I have been so absorbed with just living life with four kids.
Nobody told me that laundry and housekeeping for SIX was the devil. All you people who are blogging out there – who are homeschooling out there – with more than four kids… you are MY HEROES. True dat.
I stood up today and hardly ever stopped – moving, cleaning, cooking, gathering, sorting, feeding, shuffling, driving, walking, picking up, folding, putting away, tucking in, rinsing out, pouring, shutting, checking, … and here I am…
…able to SIT.
The muscles in my arms are quivering like I had been swimming all day. Did you ever do that as a kid? Swim ALL day long and be almost jiggly rubber when you were done? SO stinkin’ tired that you could hardly do anything but eat, drink, and fall into a pile of pillows on a couch or bed and DROOL?
That’s me the past 2 months. A puddle where I once was. Just call me ‘slushy’.
What’s sad are all the blog posts that will never see the light of day. You’ll just have to trust me that I can write interesting and encouraging things… stories about family, about my grandparents, about children and motherhood, faith-filled devotions, great homeschool tips and ideas…
They pop in to my head while I’m doing all that STUFF up there in paragraph number three. They pop in to my head when I’m about to fall asleep. They pop in to my head when I’m in the shower (the only 10 minutes a day when I am not in charge of someone else).
And then, they disappear in to the urgent moments that swallow up the rest of the day. “Do the next thing. Do the next thing. Do the next thing…” … “I think I can. I think I can. I think I can…”
Someone needs to invent a waterproof recorder so you can dictate notes in the shower. To yourself.
Yes, I know I’m crazy.
Anyway… I’m still here. I’m still homeschooling (barely – but I’m sure it will get better). I’m still a blogger (I think). I’m still moving to WordPress (eventually). And I still love you for checking in over here while things are so quiet. Trust me, they are NOT quiet in my house!
I love you forever,